di li da la~

Wahahahahaa, I'm having the trial exam now, but seems like I'm free than before ! LOL!
Not a good symptom actually, why do I so relax huh? Perhaps i think I'm confident with my add math and physic? I hope so.

Well it's nice to do some good decision, finally let go some thing else. Feel free between all of us, no more bond. But then I just realize actually a lot people around us wasn't good as we expect. They have some forbidden things to let others know, hide behind of them, not good like that.

Since everyone is friend so we shouldn't hide any secret thats doesn't give benefits to other. Speak, talk, share and discuss properly might be the way to solve this kind of problems.

And I thought i could cut this off nicely. But seems like it wasn't. Still can't let go something, struggling and becoming 'stubborn' of it. I used to hate this so much, why we got so much problems in our life? Desire cause a lot of things, money, fame, proud, dignity. Thats why human being is becoming cruel and greedy than before, all about desire.

Should talk a lot for now, its time to work for the exam, Singapore stay tune for my next visit !

Heeyoo~

The trial exam for SPM is around the corner, everyone is doing their best to achieve a better result. Well I'm still slacking here, perhaps I'm confident about myself? (I hope so)
Of course I will not be the one who didn't do so. Is thinking how to pass my weakest subject HISTORY, LOL. Okay its is damn damn boring for me k. I think not only me. But what to do? It is on of a important role for my result. Hopefully I can pass and get a better result and won't let my parents disappointed.
Oh yea finally I made the decision, was thinking, this decision may change the future. Yes, every decision is changing the future. No matter what will happen in the future, its okay for me since I had decided. Nothing can stop me even hurricane or cyclone.
A kindly advice for all, don't regret for what you do, just thinking to do the best, as you could in the rest of your life. And ya, forgot about this. Perhaps we have a misunderstand before this, calm down dude, its why a friendship be with this. I'm okay with everything now, cleared my mind and accept everything even it is not a good thing for me, or even not a good thing for everyone. Just hopefully everything go smoothly, everyone is happy.
You get what I mean isn't it? Since a lot thing happen recently. I thought we were in the same bond, but seems like it broke down already. Lastly I just wanna wish all of you, Buddha bless you, God bless you, we bless each other, friends.

I can't stop imagine. P/S

Why why why?

I'm keep asking myself.

You always know that, I didn't mean to stop. From the deep part of my heart, ii would like to tell you honestly. I really really love you since the day, you changed me.

Every time I see you, my mind pops out a lot of image, a lot of things. Keep imagining ow good is that if you're be with me. When you cry I can be with you, when you are sad and you need a shoulder I can lend it to you, when you need a hug i can let you feel the sense of safety, when you need a talk I can always let my ears to be the best listener for you, when you're bore I can be the clown to cheer you up, when you're happy you could share the happiness with me on the moment, when you need a partner and I will always be your best choice. Laugh together, cheer up you whenever you sad, follow you wherever you wanna go, just give me a call then I will be right there.

How good is that? Say 'yes', and you will know that how good I can treat you as possible as I could. Hopefully every of these things can happen in my life, with you all the moment, we share our happiness and our joy. I would like to take care of you, if you did let me to do so.

I will still waiting for that, always. I don't mind how long the time I have to wait, even though some guys will think that why I can do so, seriously the feeling just pop out from my mind, I just follow since it doesn't wrong.

I wish you can take the consideration seriously, this ain't a joke. I'm putting my hard work, my love, can't you sense it?

So, could you understand my feeling on this moment, this second? Just do a consideration about me please. Hopefully to be a part of your life, not only a simply guy pass through your life.








P/S : To another one

I know you're not happy with me, since I'm the same if you treat me with the same. Don't you think keep recruiting vote for yourself to 'make yourself high' like " wow all the people around was supporting me, why I still scare about that".
Sorry I gonna tell you, you're such a IDIOT if you do so. This isn't a election, you think you're running for president for any club or society. Please clean your mind up before you do anything okay?
Don't curious who that I'm talking about, its you.

I wanna hold your hand.

Yea, as title.

I wanna hold your hand, seems like funny to do so? I'm just waiting you to say 'Yes' at the moment. Feeling great if I can do so, you're such a precious for me, really. Perhaps we were born to meet each other and have a special story? Haha i hope so.

And now, I still not yet think to give up. I guess you know why. I will not do so, its such a weak guy action? Even can't hold your hand, I also wish to be with you always, all the time I could, all the way you go. Yours 'Yes' will let these dream become true, undoubted.

And now I would like to tell you, Heng Shu Ning I wanna hold your hand tightly and won't let go !

Happiness among you two.

Congratulation for my friend, your effort didn't waste. You have bear a good result for your hardworking.

Some more envy when I see you two, I can't stop thinking how good is it if the same thing happen on me?

Should I take any action for now? The bridge is pulling tightly now, I'm scare about I can't pass through the bridge once it snapped. Repair the bridge as fast as possible or just leave it there ?

Tell me what to do?

More than I can say.

When you're walking on the road, and you reach a junction. There is two choice for you, left and right, which one would you choose?

Some times we meet up something that we have to make a decision, its hard to do it. Have to care about this or that, we can't just choose what we like, because may be of your decision may change the next moment of the world.

What I have to do when I'm facing you, yea I always hope that you will look forward to me and give me a warm smile. Always wish that I'm the one you waiting for, I have the chance to hold you hand, or even a hug.

I just wanna to tell you, I really love you and I wish to always be with you, be your guardian all the time as possible.

And yet, I love you more than I can say.

Let it be.

Shouldn't think so much, just let follow the 'flow' silently without any wrong. Don't have to do any extra things, just do the best I can.

I think, hmm.. May be I don't have to make myself different just when I am facing you. You make me nervous anyway.

Thanks Jve, you had taught me a important lesson.

Let it be, you're definitely right. Don't have to force everything, just follow them, everything depends to each other, then everything will be okay.

So what I have to do for now, just let it be. Perfection will make the decision, I just have to be myself, just like normal, not to be special.

Lastly, I just have to continue my normal life, without affect by any other factors.
Let it be.

I don't put a big hope.

I know you're good, you're kind, don't wanna make a choice to avoid any misunderstand. You have been wronged this period, I feel guilty conscience to you. I really hope that you can be happy always, you no need to face much problems.

And I wanna lend you my shoulder whenever you need, when you sad I hope I can be your side to take care of you, not to let you sad anymore but make you happy instead.

May be you think that I do nothing and I'm going to give up but hold on, I'm just thinking what I do may let you feel lost direction. So i choose to stay away, stay behind whenever we walk together, just like what I do always.

For now, I'm not going to stay silent. I understand that you just think me as a friend, perhaps a better friend than a normal. I'm just wanna to let you feel, I'm sincere to treat you nicely, to take care of you, to hold you hand tightly, and I really don't wanna to let go anymore, even once !

I do my best to let you know all of this. Or just maintain our relationship like two years ago, I feel more comfortable to that. I don't expect what will happen soon, and I don't put a big hope on that.

I just want you to be happy always, honestly and gratefully.

I don't wanna guess anymore.

Sometimes do we have to believe to our eyes?

Perhaps we no need to do so. What we seen through our eyes will not really be the truth. Once we spot a things, or a incident happened, a lot of prediction come out from our mind. Thinking about what's going on, what will happen on the next minute.

Yea, this is a human being. Humans are full of curious, that's why we have advance technology today.

Okay, get back to what I want to say. Saw somethings i never ever want to see, and I'm thinking, shall I continue what I wanna do or just leave it there and act nothing happen? Act like a great person to forgive somethings that I'm struggling, I don't wanna let it off? I think I can't do that, we shouldn't be selfish but some times we have to fight for what we want, what we think it is right.

My mind is such a wooden plant now, frozen. Continue or stop? Well, any wrong step may lead death, that's why we have to make decision correctly. Don't make any regret for our life, our decision. Regret is worthless, so I don't wanna regret.

I don't wanna guess what you think about, I want you to tell me the exact answer. It is useless, what I get even I guess the right one? It is still a pending answer, you will never recognize it.

So guys, tell me what to do? I don't wanna guess anymore.

Moment of Silent

The bell is ringing
And I am looking
What is happening
It is just nothing at all

I was hoping
You to be with me
But it seems like
Only a simple fool for me

It was a silent night
A night full of fears and tears
And I had lost my direction
To the way searching for you

It was a silent night
I can't listen clearly to your heart beat
And I don't know what to do
For me
It is just a silent night

It hold me tight
It brings me joy
But it makes you cry

For you
Undoubted
It is just a worthless night

Qualification

Ahem, i think i had already understand all of this.

At the moment I ask the question, i had already predicted the answer. Well, unexpected you had answered a different answer. Honestly during the same time I was shocked, very shocked.

This surviving game isn't good as expect. We must follow the survivor rules to continue and survive in the next moment, next second. Absolutely, a single step may lead 'death'. Seems like I had made a wrong step in this, seriously.

No matter how good the memory you had left in my mind, all of this is just only left 'zero'. I don't know what you think about me, maybe you think nothing at all.

Yea, obviously i am a dead now, left a single empty body. The another challenger still surviving, or maybe had won the competition already.

I am undoubted, when i saw the scene. I am very clear to explain all of this, it is just a moment but it made a scar on my chest.

A male mantis chosen to marry with the female mantis, and it have to sacrifice himself for sure. Maybe I had broken the rules, thats why I lost my qualification for this surviving game.

At least I think I didn't lost anything in these 3 years, but I gained a lot. I understand why you felt sorry, cause I know that you had wronged for this period. Sorry for being such a handicap in your path of life, i think. But thankfully you grow me up, lifted me up when I was down.

And yet, my love is just a, trash.

Oh, I got a DREAM !

It is my final year to stay in secondary school, and i gonna say good bye to my dear school, funny teachers, every funny incident that had happened at the school, with my crazy mate ( yea we are really crazy ).

Yes, all of the siao kia (crazy guys) in my class, don't care whether boys or girls (absolutely we are) are going to fly away from this little town, a place we establish our perfection and to continue their further study.

Can't predict that where will my friends go to continue their study, but once we are friends, we are still friends. Friends are precious ! =D

Remember, no matter how far you are, no matter what are you doing, you must come back to Gurun, wait at Nissan to go for Penang Bridge Marathon ! Hahaha I like it so much. XD

The legendary comic hero? LOL

Naruto, a comic since few years ago i think.
recently was following up for this interesting comic. He had became stronger than before, much more stronger. I think not much of the people expect that what will be the next for this story, it's such a good idea huh.

By the way, this year gonna be a bad bad year, due to a very important exam is coming, which judge me, and my friends future.
Good luck guys ! Let's move it on and fight for our future, just like Naruto !!

Okay fine. Let's start again.

Well as we known, no one can live only with happiness in the whole of life.
Some handicaps came out and say 'hi' to you, yea this is sucks. It does make you feel down in mood, almost in every section you can't concentrate on doing anything else.
I'm not going to talk about love, that will be more sucks than every things.

It makes me feel like somethings naive, anyway it is also a part of our life, take it easy and every thing is okay.

Back to topic, we cannot control any things to be like what we want, what we expect.
Everything that pass by our life may be good, bad or neutral. Even we are facing a very bad problem,feel sad, think again. There are still a lot people facing serious problem, but they still standing, looking forward life, looking forward for a brand new tomorrow with hope.

So who beat you down in life? Yes, we beat ourselves due to the weakness, lake of mindfulness of our mind. Be strong in our mind, our soul and cheer for our life, thanks for today because we are still alive, we are still able to see using our eyes, listen using our ears.

So guys, why we are still being unhappy here?
Do somethings that may make us feel better, benefit for us.

And yet, life is beautiful.